Essays + Narratives

The steady slap of the windshield wipers lulls me into a trance as we drive away from the only home I’ve ever known. Tears trickle down my face, leaving hot and sticky trails in their wake. I quickly brush them away, looking around the cramped car to see if anyone has noticed. Feelings aren’t entirely […]

I laid face up–a different start to a massage–and felt the warmth of a heated pad beneath me, a soft sheet and cozy blanket above. Those first few minutes, after undressing to my comfort level (down to the beige underwear that is as close as I’ll get to being in the nude) and taking my […]

“My body hurts today.” First waking thoughts as I press my weight into arthritic feet and stand to face the day. This is my body, broken for you. I hobble toward the bathroom each step a reminder  that I am broken, that this body bears the effects of creation, fallen. “I could just fall back […]

Summary and Bio:  Today’s episode continues our June theme of body image and self-worth. In this episode, Britt talks to Joy Nicholas about her relationship with her body and her eating disorder.  Joy Nicholas is a mother to five kids, aged 6 to 22. She has lived in six countries and currently resides in Seoul, […]

I look in the mirror post-shower and catch myself unraveling a story about what this body used to look like. Romanticized memories of sun-kissed skin, firm, fit, petite, and acceptable to the image the world calls “good” threaten to take me down a dead-end road of self-sabotage. Some days these stories win. I take them […]

1. Skin With a wave of my hand— yes, this hand wrapped in wrinkled skinfolds striated with veins like ridges across a mountain range, its ancient beauty splayed for admiring— With a wave of this hand I banish the illusionary elixir, this boastful bottle of serum, a trumped-up mixture of vitamin A1 commingled with vitamin […]